“Be not afraid of greatness. Some are born great, some achieve greatness, and others have greatness thrust upon them.” - William Shakespeare
Whenever I tried to be great, I would fail. There’s this expectation that we are all to stand out above the rest, be the head and not the tail, be above and not beneath in at least one thing in our lives. It seemed as if the main thing I stood out in was failure. Taking 3rd and 5th place was a normal occurrence. It felt like a ceiling had been placed on my life and in order not to crack my head on the ceiling because I was fighting to get out, it was best to work and live within the boundaries of the box. I had accepted the consequences of such a decision. I may not succeed at anything great, but at least the disappointment wouldn’t be as heart-wrenching either.
When I turned 25 years old, after an intense but brief sickness, I heard God say, “Ingrid I will not make you great in this field. When you were 7 years old you asked Me to make you a leader. I plan to do this in your life, but not in this field.” It was a crushing revelation. I had spent 18 years of my life studying science and now God had made it clear that a change was on the horizon. For some, this might have been the light at the end of a dark tunnel, but for me it was going down 10 floors, opening a sewer and descending 5 more levels to a dark, wet, foul-smelling pitch black water closet. It’s one thing not to be as great as you want at what you love doing, it’s another thing to lose your passion and not know what’s next.
Since I didn’t have a dream or a passion, I found myself supporting those who did. While serving others and the ideas that drove them, God began to unearth hidden treasures in me. It took a few years, but eventually, I discovered that I had an intense passion for seeing people come to the saving knowledge of God’s love and Jesus’ Lordship. A passion that I soon realized could not be pursued or accomplished alone. God began to stir up in me the desire to teach, train and set on fire other believers with this passion. That’s when I launched innocent rebels, a movement that is focused on raising up a community of believers that embrace a lifestyle of risk to show people that Jesus cares and loves them outrageously. When people are falling in love with God, drawing near to Him, being salt & light in the world and are burning with a passion that is unquenchable, I come alive.
In addition to having a heart for a great harvest, God has made me in such a way that I can fall in love with someone else’s dream. Joy is contagious and when someone has been captured by God’s dream for their lives, they overflow with joy unspeakable. I can’t but to be a resource to help them in their development and growth. It’s the best to be a witness to someone living a purposeful, powerful life on a mission to see God’s dream become their present reality. This dream undoubtedly involves making much to do about God and supporting those around them.
Often times, I imagine that I must walk about with this invisible sign on my head, seen only by dreamers that reads, “Dreamers Welcomed Here.” Why? Because dreamers continually seek me out for strategy, advice, and encouragement. I love those moments of sitting down over a meal or a cup of coffee plotting and planning how to pour out our lives for Jesus.
I live to be an ambassador of Christ and to support His people in doing the same.
God is funny. Not until I stopped chasing success, did I find success.